Some random thoughts

• Last night I went to my neighbor’s birthday party. Loved the atmosphere- the house was packed with kids and the adults were sitting around and chatting, chilling. Reminded me of CNY back home. And after the party was over, I reached home and felt myself lonelier and sadder than before.
• I’ve started dreamming again. 2 nights ago I dreamt of an acquaintance who told me that satan wants to rule Bangkok because it’s “perfect” (there’s a famous street sign in BKK that says the city is perfect) and almost like heaven. Then last night I dreamt of different friends assembled in BKK and the buildings totally reminded me of the HDB flats back home.
• Listening to Bob Carlisle’s “Butterfly Kisses” about his little girl, I started thinking about my own little girl. Then in a rumble of thoughts I thought of my own father who passed away when I was 17 and started bawling. Think I still miss him.
• I find Philippians 3:7-8 particularly hard to stomach today. “Considering all things a loss compared to the greatness of knowing Christ” seems harder for me to palate at a time like this when I’m still struggling from post-holiday adjustments and missing home. I know I can choose to let my losses take me further down the path of brokenness and find Jesus a greater consolation than these actual things. It’s just that I find it harder to wrap my mind around this today…